A GIRL'S MIND

i help mama cleaned the vegetables just now for tonight's dinner.
while i was helping my mama,
there were lots of unhappy incident came out from my heart and brain.
i was suffer.
i felt like crying out badly just now.
once i had done my work.
i ran up to my room and locked myself inside.
i was tried my fucking best to compel myself to cry.
but i fail.. what's going on to me?!
i cant even cry when i want to.
and i feel like crying when i don't want.
the feeling is 100times pain and it was killing me.
am i been strong for too long last time?
it make i cant tear when i need it.
DARN!

BTW, i hate DOTA badly.
this game had took all my happiness away one by one.
FUCK YOU!
screw u ass hole.!

(sorry for being so rude)


i am taking more classes of teaching art at my working place now.
hm-mm-
positive thinking.
it is good to me also actually.
you know why?
working can release the pain of mine.
do you all know?
i don't like be at home without something do to.
and do you all know?
i don't like to wait. i mean,
waiting for message?!
do you all know i don't like to be alone?
due to i will simply think.
i will think about something that might will not happen in my future.
think a lot of upset thingy,
at last, i will make my own self suffer or cry cause of my stupid mind
think all these stupid stuff.