mystery comes secrets scarification comes regret happiness comes lies trust comes stupidness disappointment comes desperation whenever my mum asked me, 'are you ok?' i wished to say, 'no, mummy.' whenever i feel disappointed, i wished to tell him 'i am sad' i afraid of losing him , i afraid of he is gonna writing me off. so, i kept whenever things i dislike as secret. i rather keep all things to myself than i had be given up by him. i dont wanna lose him. i did ever wonder, those things i did for him. will he appreciate or will i get hurts one day about he is going to give up on me. i am really such a coward in a love river, in a relationship. I am trying to be whatever you wanted. to be a girl that you wished to have.